I've been wanting to start up my blog again. I wanted to come back with a bang. I wanted to create a post that would have people exclaim, "my God. I've missed Mel's blog!"
I started a few posts and then stopped half way through. They're saved as drafts.
I can't seem to think up an idea... something to get my fingers typing insanely fast upon my keys like they once did when I was on a role. I can't seem to think of clever lines or intriguing ideas that literally get my heart racing.
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So here I sit in my bed. Staring blankly at the screen and occasionally at my surroundings without a single idea.
I suppose much like other events in life, a blog needs coaxing. It needs inspiration. I feel I need to get some practice in before really writing a great post. This saddens me because I feel there once was a time when I was on a role. There was a time when I could write a post every day. I feel like I'm back at the beginning and I need to start all over again. Sort of like those people who start working out all the time... lose a bunch of weight... feel great about themselves and then the holidays hit... the holidays turn into a few extra months and BAM. They're back at the beginning. Going back to the gym feels bitter sweet. Good to be back. But they know that they appear as if they've never stepped foot in a gym before. But they have. They have worked out here before. They have made a difference. It's just a matter of reconnecting with that person. Reconnecting with that devotion and passion. I'm not saying I'm not enjoying writing this again. I just need to rediscover my rhythm. I need to get back in touch with my creative side. I need to exercise and just write. So here it is. My first blog post of 2012. It's not fantastic but it's a start. And I think that's all I need for now. I'm starting to run.